Worthless

I know my normal handwriting ruins the mood XD My normal handwritings too cute.

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Like a lot of people, I have issues with friendships. Weird thing to say. But the people here on DA who know me the past 3 years would know that I had a lot of problems in the friendship department.

I've had 'friends' who played with my feelings for 2 years straight. I've had 'friends' physically spit on me and hurt me before. I've had 'friends' who abandoned me for no reason. I've had friends who stabbed me in the back and left me in the gutter to rot. I've had 'friends' tell me to go kill myself.

Yeah. Those people aren't my friends anymore. But what they've done to me has still left their mark on me to this day.

To this day, I have trouble believing I'm not worthy enough to have friends who love me and care for me. I have trouble believing I'm worth anyone's time or patience. I have trouble believing things about myself, even if I have telling me what an amazing person I am (apparently).

Of course I'm better now than I was before. I have a group of loving supportive friends in real life and online. Friends who I trust with everything, all my secrets, and all my hopes and dreams.

But sometimes. Sometimes its so easy to slip back into those memories. One little thing can happen and suddenly you're re-living every single moment. Have them flooding back at you, slapping you in the face.

Sometimes its so easy to feel so _Worthless

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Just a little vent art guys XD... I feel much better now thanks to *JayJayRey and *Unknownsushi. Wonderful ladies. Go watch them please. (And not in the creepy way)

And yes thats me in the picture.